today has been difficult, this week has been difficult, employees are struggling, and most of all I am struggling!!

 This year has been difficult......... 

This week has been difficult...... 

This month has been difficult........ 

People are struggling.  

Employees are struggling.....

I AM STRUGGLING!!!!!!

Today seemed to be a breaking point where I couldn't deal with much more and had to break down and feel everything that had been thrown at me.  I did wait until I got home to vent to my loved ones.  I feel sad that they have to deal with that straight on.  I mean we do have family stuff going on.  

My friends and family don't necessarily understand...... 

I am not really sure why I understand.  


Today was a day in which we had a short lesson on how temporary life really is.  Here one minute and gone the next.  breaks my heart to deal with these issues.  


and still on a very small scale -- I am dealing with not having control of my living space.  which seems so petty comparatively.  I have had control of my living space since I was 19...... that was 31 years ago.  

so I am struggling.  I feel like I should have it all together, but I do not.  


However, I love my work at this office.  I cannot wait until we go forward and great things happen  


Love your family fiercely and never forget to tell them how much.  :) 


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