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Who was Carolyn Lee? December 16, 1933 to March 21, 2019 *My Eulogy for my grandmother.   Written on the morning of her funeral March 24,2019.* ·         Carolyn Lee was a mother.    She had two children, James Carroll and Joe Frank.   She was so proud of her children.   She never tired of telling stories about them growing up. ·         She was a grandmother.   Mostly known as Mawmaw.   She was known as Mawmaw not only to her biological grandchildren. She had many “kids” she claimed along the way.   She would tell you quickly that Nathan, Ashley, & Kim were her “kids” too.   She always had a story about her “kids”.   She would tell everyone about everything that the “kids” had going on.   She would show off the latest pictures of the houses or the kids or whatever new was happening with them.   ·      ...

I started this blog on unworthiness back in 2011.   I found the draft of it today.  Wow, today of all days.  The timing is not lost on me.  There is no coincidence here.  I needed to read this today.  I know that someone else out there also needs to read this today.  I was watching the last episode of Oprah a few months ago.  Oprah spoke about the lessons that she hoped people learned from watching her shows.  I have to say that some of her final comments that day struck me more than anything I have heard her say over the last 20 years.  I was able to find a transcript of her final show online.  "Because whether it’s heroin addiction or gambling addiction or shopping addiction or food addiction, work addiction, the root is all the same. There is a common thread that runs through all of our pain and all of our suffering, and that is unworthiness. Not feeling worthy enough to own the life you were created for. Even people w...

 What is Life? Years ago some friends and neighbors, used to have evening conversations in the culdesac at the end of a long day.  We would all sit around and talk and then suddenly out of the quietness one night I spoke up.  I  innocently ask, "What is the meaning of life?"   We would have a good laugh but that phrase became a catalyst for some pretty deep conversations later as that friend group began to see a lot of life issues really quickly.   Well, here I am 10 years later still contemplating the very meaning.  We will understand it all better by and by.   Love yall.